he knows i'd love to see him

love_rumble @ 2006-11-09T21:18:00

2006-11-10T05:18:19Z

john denver/innocence mission: follow me.

currently my song.

AH.

love_rumble @ 2006-03-31T14:52:00

2006-03-31T22:57:33Z

over the course of almost a week, my lovelies and i have had a gay ol' time celebrating my big 18th...

lifing and loving to live..(?) and my TATTOO.

legal eagle

2006-03-21T19:57:12Z

as of this saturday, march 25th 2006, i will be an ADULT.

porn, cigarettes, etc.

birthday agenda:

friday: , birthday countdown.

saturday: work? (ugh), tattoo, more birthday celebration.

sunday-monday: mendocino, baby! with the lovely lisa & eileen..and possibly michael. we will see.

WOO!

im gay for using song lyrics..

2006-03-06T08:07:35Z

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes

...

I know what you want to say
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I love you, and I should say it
But tell me just what has it ever meant?

OH what a crazy 24 (48?) hours?

relapse.
emotional overload.
snot.
etc.

love_rumble @ 2006-02-27T23:05:00

2006-02-28T07:09:18Z

man oh man.

WHAT A 24 HOURS!

too much vivarin= sweaty, irritable, and sick dope fiend. (me)

rehab sucks.

i dont want to be home. i want other home. bleh.

i have 17 dollars to last me 2 weeks..i dont start back at starbucks until the 13th.

my birthday is in 26 days. hello, freedom.
which also means day of tattoos, and possible road trip? woo!

miss you, damnit.

love_rumble @ 2006-02-16T21:06:00

2006-02-17T05:14:30Z

starbucks is going well.
i have a cold..but it will pass. as chewy said, "oh, buy a pack of cigarettes; tomorrow is another day!"
birthday in a month.
birthday road trip as well..oh, yes.
moving to down/midtown soon. finally.
..im just really happy.

relief.
its been a while.

oh, but i miss kristina. rumbly.

turns out you ARE contagious

2006-02-15T19:21:10Z

as of today i think i may be dying.

today i traded coffee beans for cigarettes, and

2006-02-07T08:10:53Z

wake up at 8am for dentist appointment.
arrive at dentist.
find out your dentist doesnt work there anymore.
reschedual.

lose atm card.
wait in line.
find atm card.
have 'unavailable' funds.
leave bank, penniless.

sit in front of your work (starbucks).
..for hours.
talking to a homeless drunk. (the whole time)
have every plan fall through.
eventually breaking down into a loud, emotional, almost-panic attack.(partially caused by a small, barking dog.)(that barked for an hour)(whose owner was casually stuffing their fat chink mouth with a noah's "bagel dog")(and acting as though it wasnt their dog barking through their mini-van window).

oh.
while menstrating!
with only one tampon!

...

come early evening.

leave starbucks.
daily routine finally begins .
discover burger king's chocolate-banana shake.(tastes chalky)(and not MY choice).
serenaded with some freestyle rapping.
tortured by sick throat gurgle bubble noise. repeatedly. with the intention to drive me insane.
having no choice but to leave, due to the 13 hour work day ahead.
but, being able to forget earlier days' events, and leaving happy.

couldnt be happier

2006-02-03T21:51:18Z

moving out in a month.
have everyone i need.
(and happy to know i dont need anyone else)
new job.
am to have money soon..
etc etc

so today i

2006-01-14T13:54:09Z

got hired at starbucks.
cleaned house (apartment).
went antique area-rug shopping.
got reaquainted with a close friend.
bid farwell to a cherished friend.
ate moose tracks.
came home.

love_rumble @ 2006-01-06T09:53:00

2006-01-06T17:56:41Z

just to recap the last week or so...

"sister girl"

little kristina legs

sad dumplins

the cage

adeliiiide

new years eve

rumbly

fag n hag

heidi is moving in less than a week...kristina is going back to sf...sigh.

love_rumble @ 2005-12-29T23:28:00

2005-12-30T07:34:25Z

so im going to the city tomorrow. finally.
to reunite, to say goodbyes, to clear my mind, and to HOPEFULLY have a good time.

oh, and i could quite possibly start working at starbucks.
downtown.

SOON. i am moving there soon..

love_rumble @ 2005-12-17T00:20:00

2005-12-17T08:20:48Z

i think im going to keep to myself for a while.

figure my shit out.

good, good times

2005-12-15T05:22:50Z

birthdays.
fun.

aint it the truth

2005-12-14T08:09:21Z

Make sure your excess energy and enthusiasm are put to good use. There are so many things you want to do today that it's easy to wind up scattering your efforts. Focus on your priorities so that you are able to take care of the most important tasks first. Chatting with friends is fun, but may be another distraction on this busy day.

i was just telling myself the same thing. i need to go to bed. tomorrow and the next will be long.

i needed something to do OTHER than making depressing mixed cds

2005-12-11T18:53:02Z

soooo i did this:

so true

2005-12-07T07:42:44Z

You could be feeling somewhat deflated today, having moved through a phase of heightened activity. It's not that you are disappointed about any one situation; it's more that the energy levels are beginning to settle back down to normal. It's not a good idea, however, to withdraw completely. Keep connected with your friends and associates, for they can lift your spirits when you most need it.

love_rumble @ 2005-12-03T05:57:00

2005-12-03T14:03:19Z

my family and i have been visiting the hippy coastal town of mendocino my entire life.

its where i feel most at home.

anyways, my parents may become the proud owners of "MENDO BURGER", a little establishment that has been ran by an elderly couple for the last 16 years.

this would mean my family moves to mendocino, and makes a living running a burger joint.
i want this to happen so badly...it has always been my dads dream to mendocino, and my mom needs to go somewhere to find sanity. OH, and my sister wont turn out to be such a slut.

love_rumble @ 2005-11-24T16:29:00

2005-11-25T00:30:41Z

i was bored.

i hate thanksgiving.

love_rumble @ 2005-11-21T22:49:00

2005-11-22T06:50:02Z

don't come hard up against a problem you can solve by being patient.

horoscopes. SO right.

love_rumble @ 2005-11-17T22:23:00

2005-11-18T06:25:03Z

its amazing how someone can change overnight.

im confused, hurt, and extremely emotional.

im starting to disgust myself. i shouldnt rely on someone to make me happy. but i do, and im miserable.

..and if i listen to anymore jewel...or the cranberries, im going to throw up again.

love_rumble @ 2005-11-13T00:54:00

2005-11-13T08:54:50Z

ugh. help me.

i am so fucking confused, and i am vomiting as a result.

im stressed. the end.

love_rumble @ 2005-11-09T18:46:00

2005-11-10T02:46:22Z

as of tomorrow, i will be temporarily driving a DODGE STRATUS.

my cabrio gets destroyed, and the rental company gives me a dodge stratus. SWEET.

my people

2005-11-07T01:07:06Z

i just saw a news report about mendocino breast cancer activists threatening to bare their breasts to the public.

I LOVE MENDOCINO.
i belong there....

love_rumble @ 2005-11-02T23:53:00

2005-11-03T08:00:24Z

Take a drug to set you free
Strange fruit from a forbidden tree
You've got to come down soon
More than a drug is what I need
Need a change of scenery
Need a new life

i need to stop listening to music.

san francisco and boys night out tomorrow...too bad one of their members is a fucking PIG.

anyways. i just got off the phone with kristina...i miss her. (oh, and our plan has worked out perfectly...as in VEGAN food....eh?)

NEVERMIND.

i never want to go back to my house. i just want to be THERE. its sick.

its not like anyone knows what the hell im talking about. who's gay?

oh and danielle, love you.